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[Envy can't sleep. Ever since yesterday, he hasn't been able to shake this feeling of...what? Anxiety, nervousness, something, and he has no idea what's causing it. There's been the headaches too, which just makes it worse.]

[It's a little after two in the morning when he remembers that he still hasn't spoken to Greed since their argument. Is Greed still in Johto? What if he's disappeared? And once the thought occurs to him, Envy can't get it to go away. So he takes his 'Gear and sneaks outside, around to the back of the inn where he won't be overheard.]

Hey, Greed. Wake up.

[Fortunately for Envy, Greed barely sleeps to begin with so he's quick to respond, taking a moment to get over the shock of Envy contacting him out of the blue in the middle of the night before he answers.]

I'm awake. What's up?

[Okay good, Greed is still here after all.]

[...now what.]

Nothing. I was just...

Bored, and nobody was awake.

[...and he's had plenty of time to think about the things Greed had said during that argument, and had a talk with Heather too. Damn it.]

[There's a long pause before he mutters something barely understandable. But it almost sounds a little like "sorry".]

Edited 2014-05-24 03:01 (UTC)

[Greed's quiet for a long moment. He thinks he heard the apology but he still feels awkward as hell because it had been his fault as much as it had been Envy's.]

[It must be a homunculus thing, being unable to sleep well even as humans.]

About what I told you in April, I...

[God, this is awkward.]

I was angry. I say stupid things when I'm mad. You know that.

[This is so awkward.]

Yeah, I know. And...shit, you know how I am when I'm angry.

[He didn't mean those things either.]

[He's not even sure what to say. He's always been lousy at apologies.]

We both screwed up, yeah?

Yeah, we did.

[There's a long pause before Envy speaks up again. Apologies are bad enough, and admitting that he screwed up is even worse.]

And...you had a reason to be angry.

[What can he say to that?

He's been here for nearly two months and already he's... well. Adjusted to not having his life be in constant danger.]

It was different back there.

[Envy's tempted to leave it at that...he's not drunk enough for this. But still, there's that bubbling anxiety that something's going to happen that won't go away. What if he doesn't get another chance?]

I shouldn't...I shouldn't have told her.

[It's an incredibly strained admission, one he obviously doesn't want to make even if Greed can't see the scowl on his face.]

[He's not sure what to say? Agree?

That would probably just piss Envy off, and he doesn't want to do that.]

It... wasn't like I told you my plan.

[And it may very well have gotten both of them killed had Envy gone along with it.]

[Yeah, good idea. This is still a touchy subject, and it's not that hard to piss Envy off even when he's trying not to be.]

It wasn't a terrible plan.

[That comes out as a grumble.]

I didn't realize...

[And again, not sure how to finish that. He hadn't realized a lot of things back then.]

It was different, back then, for both of us.

I couldn't have continued to be there even if I wanted to.

[Dante had given him a second chance, after all, when she confronted him and he had responded by continuing to be defiant.]

Look, I... it was never my intention to abandon you.

I don't think I could have left. It was just...it was screwed up, all of it.

[And then there's what Greed says next, which hits Envy like a punch to the stomach. He goes quiet after that, part because he's not sure how to respond, and part because he doesn't trust his voice. Even though he's had all the time since the argument to think about this and realize that it was true...it's something else to hear it.]

[It's the closest he's ever come to an apology and it's for Envy of all people.]

[He falls silent, because he's not sure what to say. He's always been lousy with his emotions. He's Greed-- admitting that he's capable of forming deep attachments feels more like a flaw than proof of humanity.

He's quiet for a long moment before he finally speaks again.]

She's not here to control us.

[It's much the same way for Envy, even after all his time here.]

I know. We're free, we can do whatever we want.

[And associate with whoever they want. There's no such thing as a traitor to Dante if there is no Dante, is what he's trying to say. Besides, he'd probably be a traitor now too. There's no way he could go back to that willingly. He sighs.]

Hey, don't go fucking disappearing. I don't want to do this again.

[He makes it sound confrontational, like a frustrated demand, to make it sound less...what it actually is. Please don't leave.]

[Dante can't ever come here. He doesn't know what he would do. He doesn't want to think about it.

There are so many things that have happened here and he's not even entirely certain that he's happy to be here, but he also knows that he doesn't want to leave.]

I'm not going anywhere. You think I'd leave without trying to take everything this world has to offer?

[It's okay, Envy, two can play at this game of "feelings are hard."]

[Envy lets out a noise that sounds like some mix of exasperated and amused. He can't really believe it, they don't have any control over when they leave here...but for now, it's enough.]

Of course you wouldn't, what was I thinking?

[It's not like Greed wants to leave. He doesn't have any plans to. This is practically cheating death the way he looks at it.]

See? I'm not going anywhere. This place hasn't come close to seeing the last of me.

[Clearly the way to deal with uncomfortable situations is to default to being smug as fuck to hide how much he doesn't want to leave Envy behind.]

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